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Had a weird day out with a friend. We went to the seaside and took a long walk, I can even say that we'de exerciced. Had pizza for lunch and came back home 15minutes ago. I feel so sleepy so I guess I'll go get some sleep after posting this.
I had to tell a friend a dream with all the details so it was pretty tiring, can remember the details of a dream you see?? Well I can't if I don't write it down to somewhere.
I'm still excited about tomorrow, will take a shower before dinner and watch TV with my sister aaaand go to sleep. Have to get a good sleep tonight,tomorrow will be a long day!

Umut has tought a lot to me about dressage and I still remember how much fun we used to had when he tried to buck the other horses but with me on he was just playing, not really bucking. And I also remember the way how I had to say good bye to him. I hugged him for one last time,gave him carrots. He hugged back and bit my t-shirt in a soft way (that's how he plays but this time it was in a sad way). My old trainer had to send him away because he bucked the other horses a lot. I miss you boy and hope you are in a green place with nice ladies!!!

Well I had to try it first so when my sister let me do some experiments on her hair...It lookes perfect!!! I ill breaid her hair tomorrow because she's going to a birthday party hahah.
And by the way I know she has really beautiful hair !!!  Take a closer look to the braid.!

I will make it look even better on my horse saturday :) will take pictures of it too!

was planning to do this at the first place but I might pick the horse with the needle. I really don't wanna get kicked by Gudy just before the competition :D

Isn't it just so beautiful! No one will be doing this at the competition on saturday, if I manage to do it properly Gudy will look awesome!!! It doesn't look so hard to do but Gudy's mane is shorter than this so I don't know if I'll be able to make it look this great.

Today will be a boring day. The sky is covered up with clouds and it will probably rain. I have to go out with my mom dad to do some shopping, it's their own business, I don't know. I'm planning to hang out alone. Pfff I'm still nervous about the competition but I'm also happy because at last I will be competition dressed! Hahah :)

After riding Mercedes today I rode Gudy. Well my trainer said that he's a pro but his trot isn't as extended as Mercedes. Feels like he's lame when you trot with him at first but I got used to it. We also did some jumping but you really have have that rein contact with him all the time because he wants to get away with you after jumping a fence. He doesn't really care about who is riding him, he doesn't get bothered and does his own job. I think that's kind of funny because horses are meant to cooperate with their riders :D Gudy has quick turns so at first I lost my balance a bit and I was really tired after grooming+lunging+riding Mercedes so that's why I had difficulties staying on the saddle. My trainer says that I'll compete with Gudy next week. Gudy is ok :) I will try to upload a short vid to youtube after I'll post it here.

No school this week and next week we have exams. Well it's supposed to be "holidays". I just had my breakfast and now I'm watching Lost a bit, later I'll be going to the supermarket with mom to help her. Boring. Today I guess I'll be home and study a bit for the exams. Tomorrow I'll go to the ranch probably, if the weather is good maybe my trainer can take me to the XC arena, that'll be great! Anyway the weather just sucks today, hope it doesn't rain!

I'm sorry that my riding sucks in this vid :/ I'm not really used to his jumping style so my position was kind of awkward. Anyway I love his speed! And he's not even fast in this video.

Was a wonderful movie. In my top 10 movies :)  Scenes filmed with horse were wonderful. I wonder if Reese Whiterspoon had to take riding lessons for this movie O.o

                                            jumping with Mercedes (:

Went to the ranch very early yesterday and stayed there until 3.45pm! First I rode Mercedes after lunging him a while. He was good,fast and more obeying compared to our last training :) He gets better every time I ride him. We started jumping 30cm x fences,trotting up to them and he didn't really seem to jump but when we had to do a jumping class he was perfect,jumped every fence flawlessly. I will upload the video after.
My trainer wanted me to ride a horse named Salinero. He is a wind-sucker but a cutie like Mercedes. He is 4 years old and smaller as height from Mercedes so we can say that he's a smaller version of him (: I lunged Salinero too and did the same jumping class with him too but he gets scared from nearly everything :/ That's because he's little. The problem is that maybe I'm a bit long for him. My legs touch his when he canters :D Or maybe it's because of the stirrups OR I'll get used to it ;) Salinero warmed up to me ever so quickly, he was rubbing his head on my chest after the training. I like him :) So here's a picture of him a bit shaky though...sorries!
 

and yes I know he looks just like Mercedes. Their boxes are next to eachother (:

Yesterday bio exam was pretty good but I'm not sure about some questions. There were like multiple choice but we had to do a lot of explanation in some of them. After school I went to my cousin and played with his dog for a while :) Cute,isn't she ? My trainer called and said that the competition was cancelled. So I started freaking out till I heard that I'll be next week. Anyway we'll have some more time with Mercedes,more time ,more jumping, a better jumping class in the competition next week. 
Last night I texted a friend and we talked till 12am and still I  woke up at 7.30am and listened music,written in my diary a bit. We have no school :) Then I went downstairs and watched Lost while I ate all the strawberries in the frige :D and yes I know I'll have freckles all day. Damn it!
Tonight I will go to a piano concert of our old teacher(I used to play but then I quit). I have to look nice as mom says but I really have no idea about what to wear :/

I want to but a saddle pad and  a fly veil (not because there are flies but they look nice :D haha ) Of course these are the colors which will look nice with Mercedes :)

My favorite combination! ( www.athorse.com and www.respectland.com )

for dressage competitions (same website)

for XC :) (same websites)

YUMMY!!!!!!!


Exams already started but the hardest ones this week are all over, I'm so glad that they are! Today I'll study for English and Biologie. We also have an arts test on thrusday funny! P.S. no school on Friday!

Don't have any time to blog so I'll just say it it briefly. We did jumping anf he was perfect. Also did half-pass in canter! Was great :) !! Will compete with him this week on Saturday.

Talked to my trainer aaaand I will ride Mercedes tomorrow :) I hope we have a great lesson and I want to try a dressage move that I've seen in a competition ( FEI world cup). I know it is a high-level move very high indeed but I guess we can do it. It is half-pas but you do it for 3 times instead of a serpentine. Fun!

This is how stupid I looked all wee along including today =D ofc I didn't go to school with those socks, they just keep me warm inside the house. Anyway I was so busy watching Lost so I didn't bother to change that day. I'm not that sick anymore, feeling a lot better compared to tuesday!

Pretty interesting school day but I'm happy that I finally made back home because I'm still sick plus have to go to training tomorrow. There'll be another trainer because my trainer will go to a competition to IASK :/ I will talk to him tonight about riding and jumping Mercedes a bit for tomorrow. 23 April there'll be a competition and I'll enter with Mercedes and I haven't even jumped once with him. Before sleeping I will read some cool stuff about dressage so I can try tomorrow :)
We did the Francophonie shows today and I think we all sucked :/ At the end of the show a music started to play and everybody was off the stage. There was only me and I did a super funny dance :D Gosh I'll never forget that moment.

You won't see my face for a while-at least for 4 days-because I look like a ghost. Pale white! Scary...A friend who has been sick-actually the whole school is sick-is sitting near me in class so yes I got the flu. I hate it. It really sucks so bad to be sick. My mom told me to wear my coat a few days ago. She was dead right. Btw realized that my hair has grown =D
My exams start next week and at the moment I can barely keep my eyes open but have to study. Our first exam is physics and it's on friday. Hope I get well by then! I still have my freckles on because I keep eating strawberries and with my sore throat combination I don't feel glamorous. Last night I didn't even sleep a bit,just read some text messages over and over from my cell. When I became sleepy I tried to sleep but it was only for an hour or less. School was terrible. We've to prepare a show for Francophonie and I am supposed to be the presantator and prepare a little speech. I've done nothing yet. I also have to mail my biologie homework to my teacher for the correction. Oh shit.

The ending is beautiful, the music sounds like its singing.

Have been listening to the song of Fever Ray since 3 days or so and I loved it! It's "Keep the streets empty for me" Red Riding Hood soundtrack but when I watched this clip I really peed my pants because the girl is so lame! What the hell is she doing ?!?!?!

Watching some videos from yesterday with Mercedes I realized that at the beginning of the lesson he was doing travers!!!! I tought he was doing that on purpose but after  reading about Dressage a bit from my book I found out that I was the one who made him do travers. Next lesson I am planning to change reins in serpentine so after we could do renvers too. The only thing is that when I try to do renvers he gets out of the track and he wouldn't let me use my foot.

He's only six years old and it's my first time riding him+doing dresssage with him and still we look better than ok. In 2 years maximum we will be looking exactly like that wonderful horse next to our picture.

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COLLECTION AND EXTENSION  

Mercedes has an extended trot in this picture and at the end of the lesson his trot was even more extended than that. The thing is I should give the reins to lengthen his trot but he starts to canter. I kind of solved that by giving my weight to the back while I ask for him to lengthen his stride.
I really want to work with him and get better in dressage because I really feel awesome when I ride him, it feels like we are the best team,the percet choice for eachother. I believe that we can place in a dressage competition. Ohh and he'll look pretty when I plate his long beautiful tail :)

Bought these today. The shorts are for summer but I saw them today and really liked them, was looking for something like that last year. It'll fit perfectly for hiking this summer in Datça :) The t-shirts are for both riding and rock climbing. By the way I really love those colors,especially green, all tones of it. Green+yellow=perfect match ;)

Here is our dear wild cat. She found us and till that day she comes when we call her name :) At 5.30am in the morning I go to school and even at that hour she comes to see me. When I come back from school I find her waiting in from of the door. Sometimes she hangs out in the neighbors and when I get out of the shcool bus she runs at me canters like a horse :D Cutest ever. The only little problem is that she gets a bit too wild when we try to play with her in the garden. Yesterday I was laying down on the grass and suddenly she popped out and jumped on me. She scared the shit out of me :D !

When I arrived to Horse Village today another friend of mine was riding Firyoza and she was soo tired so had to go rest. My trainer wanted me to ride Besni Bey( the arab pony who doesn't canter but roll like a ball) and I told him that I really didn't like him. So he decided to get me another horse. I was hoping that it would be Magelan. It wasn't..it was something better! Mercedes was standing there waiting for me. At first he was so tensed and was pretty fast. Was being hyper because he hasn't being ridden for 2 weeks. Handling him wasn't that hard of course because I've ridden Maverick when he hasn't been ridden for 3 months! Anyway the beginners and unexperienced riders made Mercedes learn a bad habit like not obeying and responding to the reins. He is 5 years old so he gets agressif when you use your feet a lot. Voice aids are fine with him. I made him walk for 10 minutes in circles and then trot slowly. I've forgotten that I should be patient with the young horses. After half an hour he became perfect,feeling the slightest movement of the reins. Also perfect circles and the most perfect leg yielding I have ever seen. When he does that with the rythm it feels like flying. I have the video of that in facebook :) Haven't uploaded it to youtube yet. Mercedes is a perfect horse. From now I on only me and my trainer will ride him. I'm so happy about that because I finally found the horse that I'm looking for. I really had difficulties at the beginning of the lesson but after he was brilliant. By the way he was so beyond energetic today but he will be calmer next week. He tried to bolt while cantering but I didn't let him.
I will compete with him on 23 April :) !

This headache kills me, it is because of the storm we have now outside. Feels like the trees will fall,wind blows so hard. I can't even keep my eyes open and yes I'm still posting. I was thinking about the training of tomorrow. I hope it goes well because the last time we only trained for 40minutes or so. It was so boring and it was a useless lesson. I see some girls who have horses and they are not happy with it. When I see them I just want to punch them in the middle of their face because I'd give anything to have their life. They just don't know the value of what they have in hand and that also kills me. How can they be so stupid ?! I wish I had a horse and could go more to trainings and compete. But we all know that will never happen. I will just ride schoolhorses and be the who fixes the stable. Anyway I love spending time in the stable, it doesn't bother me.

Have you ever notcied that celebrities are really very short! Amanda Seyfried is 1.61m, Emma Roberts is 1.62m , Kristen Stewart is 1.65m and Blake Lively is 1.78m okay she is tall. I am 1.77m but I have very long legs. It is a good thing, as people say but it really makes a problem when it comes to fixing the stirrups hahah :D

Had a funny school day with 2 empty lessons. We just painted our "weird" paintings for Vakko. Our teacher liked mine but I did that design in 3 minutes or less I don't remember :D It isn't a bit original. Just drew some stupid lines with the ruler and colored the shapes in different colors (used tones of blue and green).
Besides in our literature lesson we talked about a film which tells the story of a family. They lose thier children and the way they feel about it. I really don't like talking about death. I think there's no need to enter into this issues so deeply in class.
Tomorrow I have rock climbing so at least I'll have fun!! Btw I am so tired but when I put my head on the pillow I can't close my eyes and get to sleep. I don't know the reason. Mom said that ther's something in my mind that bothers me but I can't find that thing. I have been acting hyper all day long without a reason. I was sleepy but still hyper and with the freckles it gets weirder and weirder.

Sooooo cute isn't he ? He just licked my face all over and after doing that he tried to escape from his box hahah.

The training wasn't bad but no really good either because Firoza took early for a few times while jumping but better than the last lesson. We didn't do too much jumping but mostly dressage this time. It wasn't fun because I don't know why but Firyoza seems to be sooo slow now! What hapenned to you girl ?! She used to be so fast and apparently a better jumper. Maybe it is because of me. It is because I can only go once a week to riding. Is it enough to compete ? No it's not. And the competitions in club will start on 23 April. Will I be competing ? Well, probably no. Why ? Because I wasn't able to (not because I didn't wanted)train enough. Anyway I will go talk to my trainer maybe I can do the 90cm jumping class or if they have a smaller one because I have never done a real jumping class with Firyoza before.

Having freckles on your face after eating strawberries and straching yourself to death..That's weird, but it's me that we're talking about so I'll consider this as a super natural thing. When I have freckles I look like a happy little girl on the mountains with her big blue eyes,bouncing curly yellow hair on her shoulders. Only thing that's missing is a goat =__= And carrying powder with you all the time to cover up the freckles (in case they appear) is not cool! Trust me.

So see that people look good in freckles but I don't! For example this girl ( I don't know who she is I just found the picture from blogg.se) looks nice with freckles.

Erin Heatherton looks nice with everything so no comment ;p She's one of my favorite VS models! But her freckles really make her look beautiful.

Conclusion: Freckles + me = Fail. All day long people told me how cute I looked but I really felt funny. A lot of my friends liked my freckles and taught they looked beautiful. That made me smile :)

The perfect picture I took in Norway in 2007.I will use this in my biologie term homework. It's about the environnement.  If you have any original ideas please feel free to comment to this post! Thanks ;) !

A picture of me and Sezar,my pony. Probably taken  before I had to leave...

I miss him a lot. I don't feel sad when I think about him but still deep inside it hurts a bit. Was going through some pictures of me and him and I found old videos of us. Me brushing and making his hair. So cute..

Having been posting since last week! Right now I am downloading Lost from internet. Still watching season 1 hahah :) Had a pretty tiring week but today was fun. Fridays are the hardest days of the week but I participated a lot to every lesson we had. It's not a performance that you expect from me so I was surprised with my self!
Got home at 4.30pm and I was planning to go for a walk but I realized that it's a bit dangerous to tka that walk alone because...well you know. School was boring this week because Nicole was in Spain. I told her that I'd post to the blog everyday and I didn't do it once. She also mailed me and I didn't answer, instead I texted her and told that I received the mail and that I miss her. I don't know why I've been acting this way all the week but I was really sick and had a stomach ache. Had to take like nearly 3 pills in a day. Wasn't fun at all.
Tomorrow will wake up early and go to training. I hope it goes all good and I really want to have a nice lesson, good jumping course. Not good. I want it excellent!