This is not your legacy, this is not your destiny, yesterday does not define you
Wrote a long letter about Jess an realized that I miss her a lot. I nearly cried while writing those things. I still feel weird when I remember the way she died. I'm still riding because of a promise I made and I don't regret it. I always keep my word. Having her gone changed my life a lot, in good and bad ways. I learned how to be strong and learned how to get up without any help when I hit the ground. The bad part is I cried a lot and looked like a mess and she wouldn't be proud of me if she saw me in this situation. She was a strong independent girl so...
I never tought that something bad could happen to me when I fall from a horse because I believed that she protected me all the time. I never tought that we'd share the same destiny. Accidents can happen but that doesn't mean that it'd hit us all. Jess had big dreams about riding and I will make them come true for her. We shared the same dreams so I will also make my dreams come true.
When things don't go right I always think of her and what she's do in that situation. I always , always wish she was here, I wish she'd never left us.
