I can't stay away from horses,can I ?
First of all I should say that I've missed horses and riding so much. Before I dodn't really want to hear about them because it made me feel worse, I didn't want to remember how it hapenned but at school and in everywhere people wouldn't stop asking me how it hapenned and what hapenned. So I had to tell them all of it over and over.
The thing is I've been receiving some e-mails from people who are telling me that I've inspired them. I want to tell those people that they are the ones who inspired me. I want to thank them all for those lovely mails,they really made me feel better. And no I'm not giving up riding, I'm just taking a break for 2 months or maybe less. I've told people that I won't ride this year but I won't be able to do that. I won't be able to stay away from horses.
3 days ago I went to see my old pony Caesar and my old trainer. They made me remind of how important horses and riding to me. I remembered who I was. I definitely feel better. My parents don't want me to do any jumping this year but I will still do some jumping max up to 90cm but NO PARCOURS,maybe little ones? I'm not sure. I'm still a little scared after that fall because I couldn't feel my legs and falling on a fence (oxer) and breaking it with your back...that hurts.
Me and Caesar
About my back, I can walk without pain now but still sometimes there's this pain that wouldn't let me breathe. I still have bad times but I'm dealing with it. I'm swimming a lot to have a strong back. But it still feels like I'm going to break down if I move a lot. That is a really bad feeling. Sometimes I can't sleep in night because o the sharp pain and the painkillers wouldn't stop it. I still have nightmares about the accident and I see myself in a wheelchair. I tought all was over because I really couldn't feel anything below my waist,it was ever so scary.
The thing is I've been receiving some e-mails from people who are telling me that I've inspired them. I want to tell those people that they are the ones who inspired me. I want to thank them all for those lovely mails,they really made me feel better. And no I'm not giving up riding, I'm just taking a break for 2 months or maybe less. I've told people that I won't ride this year but I won't be able to do that. I won't be able to stay away from horses.
3 days ago I went to see my old pony Caesar and my old trainer. They made me remind of how important horses and riding to me. I remembered who I was. I definitely feel better. My parents don't want me to do any jumping this year but I will still do some jumping max up to 90cm but NO PARCOURS,maybe little ones? I'm not sure. I'm still a little scared after that fall because I couldn't feel my legs and falling on a fence (oxer) and breaking it with your back...that hurts.
Me and Caesar
About my back, I can walk without pain now but still sometimes there's this pain that wouldn't let me breathe. I still have bad times but I'm dealing with it. I'm swimming a lot to have a strong back. But it still feels like I'm going to break down if I move a lot. That is a really bad feeling. Sometimes I can't sleep in night because o the sharp pain and the painkillers wouldn't stop it. I still have nightmares about the accident and I see myself in a wheelchair. I tought all was over because I really couldn't feel anything below my waist,it was ever so scary.
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